Today I found a new way of looking at the feelings these hardships create. I was eating lunch with an Austrian girl who had graduated from UWC in India in 2005 and we where talking about how fast the experience is going, how sometimes I feel like I just arrived yesterday. She understood completely, also having gone though the UWC experience and gave me and my class mates the advice to savor every moment because it will be gone before we know it. She said to even savor the bad moments "Cry your eyes out, then go back to laughing,". At the time I didn't think much of it, it seemed strange to enjoy a bad time and it felt hard to believe the experience would pass that quickly.
It only took three hours till my perspective had already changed (time is a strange thing). School was over, I had a lot to study, it was p
ouring rain, my umbrella was not where I'd left it, I couldn't find a friend I was supposed to meet, and all of a sudden I just felt a rush of frustration, stress and loneliness. I just felt down. So I tried to enjoy it, I thought about the feelings I was feeling and tried to enjoy them, because I knew, that like everything else they would pass.
I made myself enjoy the rain drops hitting my face on the walk home, enjoy the feeling of having a lot to do, enjoy being by myself, and enjoy the aching somewhere in my chest.
Before I got home I couldn't stop smiling, I wanted to hug the strangers on the street, I was practically dancing!
Enjoy the sad feelings, because like everything else, they will pass.
my room... a place I have experienced ups and downs.
hi Tigey :)
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